by Fenella Johnson
Entrance to Auschwitz-Birkeanu (source: Wiki Commons) |
Sitting down to write
about Auschwitz-Birkenau is hard. I’ve been putting it off all week -- where do you
begin?
It is not a place that can be expressed by words. I’d been thinking for
a long time before I went about what to write -- maybe about the horror of the
place. I expected to be horrified.
But, after going, it was
not as simple as that -- not as simple as opening a Word Document and writing.
Sitting in a PRS
classroom, we learn all the facts, all the figures, but how can we imagine it?
1.3 million people were murdered there. 90% of them were Jews. We know about the
brutal, systematic murdering but we can’t begin to understand it. It is only
when you are there that it really begins to take on meaning beyond some
long-ago historical awfulness.
Auschwitz teaches you
many things: about evil, about war, about how the world is not just black and
white but grey, about how the worst things that can happen have been done by
men to other men. It leaves you reeling.
guards at Auschwitz |
It teaches you that
these things were not done by the evil, ugly men of German Nazi cartoons, but by
men who looked like Ralph Fiennes. It was done by a man in an office planning
how many people could be killed by a tablet. Somebody was told to design the
gas chambers. A man had to design the poster hung up in the shower room that in 5 different languages told
the prisoners not to panic. A man had to
organise the train timetabling for the Jews, a man had to design prisoners' uniforms. This is what Auschwitz teaches you -- that it wasn’t just Hitler and his
ministers deciding and executing, but thousands of people completing their orders.
As more and more Holocaust survivors are dying, the truth of the Holocaust is
going with them. The Holocaust is being edited into this more palatable
Hollywood version: Good vs Evil, Hitler vs the Rest, but it wasn’t like that. This is what Auschwitz reminds you.
What took place in Auschwitz
was far worse than any classroom or book can teach you and that is why you
should visit -- it teaches you a lesson that you cannot learn from a slideshow.
And that lesson is different for every single person who walks through the
infamous entrance to the death camp. That is why you should visit Auschwitz.
The thing about Auschwitz
is that a place that commemorates death makes you feel alive. It makes
you realise how small and how insignificant your humanity is but how important
it is that you are humane. It makes you realise how fragile life is and that
the worst things in the world are both nuclear bombs and guns --the worst thing is
what a man can do to another man. That is why you should visit Auschwitz.
Men, women and children imprisoned at Auschwitz-Birkenau (source: http://en.auschwitz.org) |
Auschwitz makes you appreciative.
It makes you grateful for everything --grateful for warm clothes and for never
having to want for much, it makes you grateful for a good dinner and good
friends and listening to slightly rubbish music through broken earphones on a
bus. Auschwitz makes you fully thankful that you are having these experiences,
even the tiny little ones, and makes you cherish them that bit more. On the day
I visited Auschwitz, the sky was beautiful. At first I felt superficial and
silly for noticing and then realised that visiting had made me more
appreciative of the sky, something so small that I would normally look at and
then dismiss -- and that’s a good thing.
That is the importance of Auschwitz --it teaches you how to be a little bit more
alive, it makes you notice. It makes you change in ways you don't fully
understand. That is why you should visit Auschwitz.
When I get to the exit
of Auschwitz-Birkeanu, I have to turn around fully to see the whole place for a
last time. Auschwitz is too big for the eye to taken in all at once, bigger
than the horizon, staggering out into the distance. It is pitiful and
disgusting and rotting, barracks bent in on themselves against the prettiness
of the gleaming flickers of salmon-coloured clouds in the grey expense of the
sky.
fantastically written, well done, and... so true
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